I wonder

I wonder if she’s ever written something to a total stranger, because they were maddeningly beautiful

I wonder if she’s ever fallen desperately in love with someone in a dream she had, spending an eternity laughing and staring lovingly into one another’s eyes only to be jarringly awoken to find herself late for work

I wonder if she’s ever held the hand of a loved one, while they slowly lost the battle to go on living, and left the room knowing she’d never see them again.

I wonder if she’s ever been so turned on her teeth hurt

I wonder if she’s ever stopped reading a book, set it down, stood up and laughed at the perfect culmination of plot, and characterization to so satisfying a moment she didn’t want to pick the book up for fear that the moment would end, and yet was so compelled she couldn’t help but do it.

I wonder if she’s ever held her pet, or her lover, and thought longingly of the one it’s there to replace

I wonder if she’s ever drunken her way to clarity

I wonder if she’s ever held her head between her hands, staring at the floor and for one perfect moment been able to avoid thinking anything at all

I wonder if she’s ever known, without a doubt, there was someone she’d give her life to save

I wonder if she’s ever laughed so hard it scared people around her

I wonder if she’s ever hurt someone because their sadness is beautiful

I wonder what things inspire her to grab life by the horns and throw it down before her

I wonder what is horrifying to her, for no good reason

I wonder what that sad, lonely childhood memory is

I wonder who she’d call if she needed to not feel alone

I wonder who she is

I wonder